Sunday, 10 May 2009

"The only thing growing, is doubt."

Three long weeks came and went, with no sign of life from inside my greenhouse. Oh dear. Perpaps the people who doubted my project were right! What if nothing grew?

However, I was very pleased to see that every time I visited, with camera in hand, the soil was moist and the greenhouse was well maintained. Obviously, someone was keeping an eye on the installation for me, which was really lovely to see. The anonymity of this individual was really interesting too - I didn't know who it was, I never saw them, but the process was perfect. Someone was taking the time out of their busy day to nurture the seeds.
It gave me hope!

It was a really optimistic aspect of this seemingly barren installation...nothing was growing. Nothing! It was great to see that someone had faith in my project.

A lot of people who had initially been so excited about the event had given up on the installation once they had seen that after a week there was no visible growth. This was another unforeseen interesting point about this project. These people did not have the patience to wait for nature to take its course. Everyone is so used to having things 'now-now-NOW!' that they had quickly become bored and had begun to not believe that the wildflower garden growing from my Metro newspapers would never materialise...

I must admit that after Week Three with no change, I was also beginning to have doubts myself .
I decided to go into Knightsbridge with a speech prepared for the manager, suggesting that we give the greenhouse one more week, and if there was no sign of growth, I would be more than happy to remove my installation from the space if they no longer wanted it. Obviously JWT would not want a little wind swept greenhouse and 60 dried up pots of compost on their rooftop terrace for long, and I did not want to outstay my welcome.
I was really devastated. I had always thought that my project would work - there was no reason why it shouldn't have! I had given the little seeds every chance; a warm environment and water, I even soaked them overnight to stimulate their germination.
In the train on the way to Knightsbridge with the speech prepared, I looked around the carriage at the crumpled up Metros on seats and on the floor and my heart sank.

What had I done wrong?

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